So my friend Emily thinks she's not very wise. I strongly disagree. This weekend we took a road trip, she and another friend of ours. We were all sitting down the first night we were there and I was telling them how I essentially have lost hope in a future for myself. I had lost hope in the idea that I was ever meant for more than present circumstances.I felt out of the will of God. I wanted to move away....change jobs...something. I felt empty and useless.
Emily started to council me and I instantaneously wanted to argue her point and the Lord shut me up and told me "Listen to her...what she's saying is wisdom." She looks at me and says something to the effect of "Its like when I"m flying in a plane. It can be the darkest cloudiest day but you get up so high you go over the clouds and the sky above them is so perfect. So when I'm out taking a run and its gloomy and cloudy outside and I start to get depressed because I miss the sun, I remember that its still there... I just can't see it."
That statement really struck me. And, as all road trips are complete with, we played all kinds of music....amazing music....in the car but we kept getting stuck on the Tom Petty song "Learning to Fly". I didn't know why at the time but the song really got to me. Every time it came on I got shivers....like the presence of the Lord was all over it. It wasn't until I got home tonight and Googled the lyrics that I really understood why:
"Well some say life will beat you downBreak your heart, steal your crown
So I've started out, for God knows where
I guess I'll know when I get there
I'm learning to fly, around the clouds,
But what goes up must come down
I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing"
Then, after that., I was ready in my devotional and I read this verse:
"So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that's where the action is. See things from his perspective.
Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you'll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you. Meanwhile, be content with obscurity, like Christ."
I think I get it now.... I need to learn to fly, even if I feel ill-equipped. I just need a perspective change. Then no matter what gets in my way, I'll still always be able to see the Son.